i am

i am

i am a crazy chameleon

wishing i could find a way to

confine myself to one color

wishing i wasn’t lost every time i found you

i am a disconnected telephone

voices inside of me screaming

with no one listening

to the nonsense and the dreaming

i am an abandoned house

crumbling from the inside out

crying for the people who never stay

missing smiles i fear and love that i doubt

i am the one never chosen

i am desperate despondent and lonesome

and maybe i should not admit it

but my light is fading and my heart lies broken

i am crushing myself

under the weight of a lost spring

i am losing myself

in the rainstorms my summers always bring

Broke

Broke

a cold night

followed the beautiful day

that i once again

spent alone

i went outside

underneath the clear skies

the vast stars

and felt small

unnoticeable

i went back inside

within my walls

lonely and depressed

and knew i had nothing

but myself

i am broke

and it has nothing to do

with money

With cheeks like cardinals..

The whistler's tune perches lightly on my ear.

A glance at your lively blue jay eyes

and my heart grows feathers;

                                 don't fly away.