i am
i am a crazy chameleon
wishing i could find a way to
confine myself to one color
wishing i wasn’t lost every time i found you
i am a disconnected telephone
voices inside of me screaming
with no one listening
to the nonsense and the dreaming
i am an abandoned house
crumbling from the inside out
crying for the people who never stay
missing smiles i fear and love that i doubt
i am the one never chosen
i am desperate despondent and lonesome
and maybe i should not admit it
but my light is fading and my heart lies broken
i am crushing myself
under the weight of a lost spring
i am losing myself
in the rainstorms my summers always bring
